While doing a search on my computer for a poem I had written, a piece "Golden Nuggets," which I wrote in 2010 popped up. (There are no accidents!) To be honest, my mood was dark and it needed to be nudged, no pushed, to one of gratitude. The words were just what I needed to lift up my chin ... to listen to my soul and let in the light.
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Regardless of the circumstances surrounding you right now, there are always golden nuggets to lift your spirits. Namaste, Laurel
Golden Nuggets
On February 4thof 2009 my husband Marty and I made the decision to bring in hospice. After a year-long illness, we acknowledged that the battle was over …it was time to let Marty transition with ease and grace.
I had been a caretaker for a year, living in fear and terror … a lonely and sad time in our 44 years together. A lightning storm struck and left us with nowhere to hide. We were exhausted, saddened and crushed. Actually, Marty seemed relieved, because in truth he was fighting to stay alive for the kids and me. He was ready to leave. I was numb and didn’t know what to expect.
The point of this is that at the worst time in my life, a social worker from hospice came into our home, our lives. She counseled and offered solace, but the most important thing she told me was that during this dark time, I should remain open and observe because I would see and encounter “golden nuggets” which would remain with me forever. I don’t know why my befuddled head heard this advice, or why I was able to retain what she said, but I did.
Because of that advice, I was able to see and feel the kindness offered by those who surrounded us that final week. Moments arrived of humans “being” the light that they are. It was as if a switch went off in my head, my heart … and my vision cleared. It was the beginning of my transition as well. I was, at such a sorrowful time, opening up to allow life in.
There have been many “golden nuggets” in my life this last year. I am grateful for each and every one of them … big and small. Because every nugget has helped pave the way for me to “be.” Loss and grief are a part of life, which everyone will encounter, and experience. But, remain open my friends… there are golden nuggets which are occurring every moment around you … embrace them, be in them, experience them. These treasures are part of your life’s story.
Laurel D. Rund / 2010
